Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG) – My Story

 

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Orla Two Weeks Old 

Firstly, if you are suffering from HG my heart goes out to you – I’ve been there and it’s so debilitating. At a time when you should be most happy, all I could do was cry.

So I want to take it back to the beginning. In my first longed for pregnancy the sickness started around 5-6 weeks. At first, I almost welcomed this symptom as they say it’s a sign things are going well – boy did I regret that thought!

I was being sick every hour, sometimes every few minutes. You know that relief you get after being sick? Well that does not happen with HG!

I struggled through the first 10 weeks thinking it’s just morning sickness it will go soon, but I do remember the point that enough was enough. It was my brother’s birthday and I had taken one bite of pizza and had to run to the bathroom. I sat on the floor crying my eyes out when my mum came in and said “you need to go to the doctors now Hannah”. That Monday I called up and was seen within the hour. They were so good! They told me I had HG and discussed different medications that were safe to take. Needless to say, none of it worked and my sickness continues until I gave birth.

My low points  

A few weeks after being diagnosed I hit a wall. I had lost over a stone in weight and could not even keep water down. The doctor signed me off work for 3 weeks and wanted me to stay off longer but with only being paid statutory sick pay (£60 odd a week) there was no way I could afford to be off any longer. I was working in a hair salon at the time and would have to leave clients midway through to go and be sick. This was when I was rock bottom. I would come home, try to eat something, throw it all back up again, sob my heart out to my husband then go to bed as it was the only thing that made to pain go away. Then I would get back up and do the whole thing all over again the next day.

My fears 

The whole time I feared for my unborn baby that I had waited 3 long years and countless fertility treatments to conceive. I felt so guilty for feeling so low when I was so lucky to be carrying this beautiful baby. I cannot praise my hospital and GP enough for the care attention and extra scans they gave me to put my mind at ease. Through it all she showed no signs of it effecting her growth. Sadly for me my sickness never went away but eased as the pregnancy progressed.

Triggers 

Dairy – I really found dairy to be a big trigger for me, which is so strange as normally dairy does not affect me. Whenever I had it I would throw up straight away.

Certain smells – I remember the smell of the toilet fresher at my workplace would make me gag – probably because I spent so much time with my head down there. Still to this day I can’t stand the smell, it’s a stark reminder of a horrible time for me.

Cutting up raw meat – Even looking at raw meat made me gag. My poor husband didn’t get a proper cooked meal for months as even the smell was too much to handle.

Giving birth to my baby

I had done so much research on HG and heard people say that once the baby is born it just vanishes and it is so true. All through my labor I was vomiting and as soon as she was born like a flick of a switch it was gone. 9 months of feeling nauseous and vomiting just disappeared. The next day while in hospital they came around to ask me what I would like to eat – dare I say a cheese sandwich? 24hrs previous it would have made me vomit instantly, but here I was holding my brand-new baby munching my way through a cheese sandwich and feeling nothing but pure joy.

The fear of falling pregnant again 

As I mentioned before, to fall pregnant with Evelyn we went through three grueling years and many fertility treatments. After having her, we decided that we would let nature take its course and if we were lucky enough to fall pregnant again then it was meant to be. But I have to say the fear of going through it all again was quite overwhelming.

When I did fall pregnant 14months after giving birth to Evelyn I was just waiting, waiting for it to happen all over again and it did! It was later this time at around 8-9 weeks and was gone by 20 weeks but I remember the first time I vomited, I looked at my husband and said “I don’t think I can do this again!”

But the thing with HG is you have no other option but to carry on. I mean what other option do you have??? John used to say to me “I’m so proud of you” and I used to say “for what? Believe me if I could give it away I would”

So all that’s left to say is, if you are going through this then stay strong! These little humans that our bodies have grown are well worth the pain and hey it’s a story to tell them when they are older.

 

Evelyn’s 02nd Birthday

A Letter to our darling Evelyn,

How are you two already? It only seems like yesterday that we were wrapping you up to make that first journey home from the hospital.

This year has seen you become a big sister and we could not be prouder of the way you have adapted to having to share mummy and daddy’s time. Not once have you been jealous or spiteful to your baby sister, you have shown her noting but love, helping to fetch things to change her nappy and telling us when she is crying (like we did not know)

You have gone from a crawling baby to a walking talking toddler with a cheeky sense of humor, you have such a kind and gentle nature but totally know your own mind and are fiercely independent. We are amazed at the new things you learn everyday and love watching you master new tasks with such strong determination.

You bring so much joy into our lives and we are better people because of you. We cannot wait to see what this next year in your little life holds.

We love you to bits,

Mummy and Daddy xxx

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Halloween baking with a toddler.

Baking is a passion of mine and I never thought I would be using a packet mix but when you have children these box mixes are a lifesaver on a rainy day.

Evelyn loves to bake and get messy, it’s really hard as a parent to let go and just let them enjoy the experience. Every inch of me is trying to control the mess but you do have to remember that although the cakes may not win the Great British bake off, to Evelyn they are a masterpiece

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Daddy & Daughter Pumpkin Carving

Daddy daughter time, there is nothing better.

Working full time i really do treasure these moments we get together, just the two of us.

We picked our pumpkin at Garsons Farm (if you haven’t seen that video please see the link below). We could not wait to get started on carving our designs. We had a great time. Hope you enjoy watching
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Pumpkin Picking at Garsons Farm in Esher

 

 

So before I had children these were the days I dreamed about, going to pick a pumpkin for Halloween. As an adult Halloween kind of passes you by, but when you have a child you get to live it all through their eyes.

I had seen all sorts of lovely pictures come up on Instagram of people picking fruit and pumpkins and thought I had to find out where our local picking farm is, so after a quick Google search I found Garsons Farm in Esher, with its vast amounts of fruit and vegetables it is the perfect place for a day out.

So off we set to go and pick a pumpkin! We were so impressed with the farm that we ended up picking apples and raspberries too, but we could have picked so much more. Evelyn had so much fun and really got into it.

We will defiantly be heading back soon, and think it may become our new favourite place.

Hampton Court Day Out

Our Saturday Adventure!

Sometimes it can be hard to find activities to do with children without spending money, especially now winter is setting in. We try our hardest to have at least one family adventure at the weekend without breaking the bank, so this week we decided to head to Hampton Court with its beautiful open spaces, river walks and of course giant sand pit.

We packed our picnic, buckets and spades and headed to Bushy Park, the second largest of the 8 Royal parks we have in London. This park never disappoints with its vast woodland, ponds and adventure playground. Kids can be free to roam around and soak up all the nature this beautiful park has to offer, keep your eyes peeled and you may even see some deer. We were lucky enough to see both male and female deer whilst there and Evelyn was truly amazed to be so close to such wonderful animals.

We played in the adventure playground and spent ages digging in the sand pit, then decided to take a stroll across the road to Hampton Court palace and took a wonder along the river, before heading back to the car and hitting the road home. Oh and not a penny spent!

Day in the Life with a New Born and Toddler

So life can be pretty hectic sometimes and no more so than with a newborn and a toddler. Some days I feel like super woman like I have got this thing nailed and other days I could curl up into a ball and cry.

When your newborn is crying because they need sleep and want a cuddle for comfort, you are trying to get your toddler out the door to go to the play group they enjoy so much, but they wont sit still long enough to put there tights and shoes on. Sometimes I admit my patience runs thin and I find myself shouting “WILL YOU JUST COME HERE SO I CAN PUT YOUR SHOES ON PLEASE” Then feel really guilty as I know its not her fault and she’s just being a typical toddler, but the stress can just get to you sometimes.

So the video is a typical day in the life, nothing fancy, just a normal day doing the things us mummy’s do, Cleaning, washing oh and keeping two children alive.

Hope you enjoy and let me know how your days plan out

Hannah xxx